Letting Go

The past year has been transformative. In order to to let myself live, I had to learn to let go.

I've learned what it takes to value myself. Creating boundaries is necessary to be able to live more openly.

Dating has been one of the best processes to learn about people, and myself. It seems so self-focused.. but it is. That is what my mid-20's is going to be about--finding myself so that eventually I can be a great partner to someone else. I need to know myself so that I can find that person. At this point, I think I know some poeple who could fit that role and I know that they would be willing, but I am afraid to commit. I still have work that I need to do on myself.

 Traversed some roads in:

• Panama
• Costa Rica
• Poland
• Germany
• Lativa
• Finland
• Estonia
• Lithuania
• and soon, South Korea and Thailand

Please don't go

Because when the mania leaves..

I miss her, but I will not text her. I will not call. And yes, I can drink away the pain. And yes, I can met new people and kiss away the pain.

And I will. 

Until I can't.

And then I will sleep away the pain. Work away the pain. 

"Racial Profiling Under Attack"

"Those of us wh have not been through this sort of experience probably underestimate its impact.  To be treated as a criminal is a basic insult to a person's self image and to his position in society. It cannot be easily shrugged off. Of courese, many victims of racial profiling are not surprised by this treatment. They know why they were stopped––which makes it worse. It;s bad enough to have the accidental misfortue of being mistaken for a bad guy; its worse to feel that you are assumed to be a criminal because of your race. Short of imprisonment, intimidation, or physical abuse, most of the pain of racial profiling is caused by treating law abiding people like criminals . . ."-Samual R. Gross and Debra Livingston

Time to turn my dating time into social justice blogging time.

https://thepragmatichumanist.wordpress.com

Now that my two weeks of consecutive partying and no sleep have ended, and I have gone on more dates in two weeks than my entire life combined, I am ready to settle down and do my homework.

I blew through more money in the last two weeks than the last four months.

I realized that I couldn't date when people started asking me of I wanted to be in a relationship..

and that is the LAST thing on my mind right now. I just want to focus on myself. Because, honestly, I have been there, done that. I've had enough pain from heartbreak to last me for a very, very long time.

Take me there, Tuesday

Today was a whirlwind.

Wake up. Slightly hung over on Jenga, pinball, and cider. 

Grab my statute book as I run out the door--make my way to Tulalip. Get to Tulalip--have a million messages from my surpervising attorney that she went to the hospital.

The supervising attorney had all of the files for the hearings at court. So, we went, as students dry into the meeting. BUT. I wrote my first motion, real motion, in a criminal case today. I moved from federal judicial opinions to criminal motions. I don't know if this is progress or digression, but I am proud.

Then I ran to Target to get hypo-allergenic sheets and a mini-vacuum. Then off to school to finish nonprofit law reading. Then, I lead the homeless youth law panel with Claire. 

Then class. Then motion filing and legal research. Then coffee on the ave with Alex. 

Then more scholarship letter updates. Then emails. 

Now, I just wanna go home and read criminal procedure. But I wish this file was here so that I could finish this parenting plan modifciation motion...

Done and Done

"Cutting people from your life does not mean you hate them, it simply means you respect yourself."